When Tomorrow Becomes Yesterday

I remember. That's the name of this song. I think it is beautiful. She could be talking to God, or to her best friend.

I remember.

I remember feeling very scared as the black sedan came up onto the sidewalk. I remember pulling my two year old brother off the sidewalk and onto the grass and weeds in the empty lot beside my dad's dry cleaning store. I remember all the people yelling at the driver. I remember people coming to see if we were ok. I remember someone saying he was drunk. I remember that the sun was shining and the temperature was nice and warm. It took a long time before my body stopped shivering.

That was 60 years ago. Today I remember that like it was yesterday, but what happened yesterday is already becoming a blur. I remember going to Vancouver with my husband. I remember going in to see some senior's support people in a building on Dunsmuir Street. I remember listening to a lawyer explaining things to us. Things like a power of attorney, a representation agreement, giving over financial and medical control of myself to someone else. I remember the urgency with which she spoke about it. I remember my husband telling me to go put a coin in the parking meter before we got an expensive parking ticket from the city. I remember going downstairs, but I could not remember where the car was. I stopped outside the building and tried to remember which direction we had come from.

I remembered that we could see the building from where we parked. I turned to the right and started walking. It just did not feel right. It did not look familiar. I could not see any cars parked, not ours, not anyone's. I stopped. I looked in every direction from the building. I looked in a circle at least 3 times. Then I closed my eyes. Telling myself to breathe deep and relax, I slowly opened my eyes again. With a great feeling of relief, I saw our car. There it was! parked directly across the street from where I was standing. What a relief!

I turned to the left and walked to the corner. When the light changed, I walked across the street and went to the car. Yes, it was ours. The things inside the car were familiar. So I put the coin in the parking meter and retraced my steps back across the street to the lawyer's office. After I sat down, my husband looked at me and the lawyer asked if I remembered the directions to get back in. I said, yes, no problem. I did not say that I could not find the car right away.

Moments of panic like that are happening once and a while now. It is usually just short loss of what I was doing, or where I was going. Sometimes I forget what I was trying to say. Nothing serious. My husband has been talking with my doctor quite a bit. I am going to the University of British Columbia Hospital for some brain tests and to participate in a medical study. I know something is not quite right in my head. I suppose I will know soon enough what it is.

Still boggles my mind that I can remember something that happened 60 years ago so easily and completely, but I can forget where we left the car just 30 minutes earlier. I forget appointments unless I write them down. I remember when the kids took their first steps, when they cut their first tooth, Where we were living when each of them was born, the house we lived in, and many other things from years gone by. I don't always remember what I did or said 5 minutes ago.

To be continued unless I forget where I am writing this.

Elouise

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The Iron SLAB

I was walking over a 'H' shaped Iron structure that lied over a small accumulation of the water of the river GANGA.

No sooner had I crossed the half of the IRON slabs divided by a horizontal iron slab than my eyeballs caught a chunk of greenery underneath...

I noticed myself standing on the structure that was well above the deep pool. It was really scary!! Was feeling as if I'm tending to lose balance and fall off from there on any side... grrr!!

It taught me that danger, misery, and dangerous plight are there to weaken us but no one but we can find positive in the midst of all these things that pull our legs to 'hell' tapering off the real meaning or sense of LIVING...

I found the GREEN plant underneath that inspired me to go ahead..


Think Positive


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Caffeine

Caffeine is a bitter substance found in coffee, tea, soft drinks, chocolate, some nuts and certain medicines. It has many effects on the body's metabolism, including stimulating the central nervous system. This can make you more alert and give you a boost of energy.Teens usually get most of their caffeine from soft drinks and energy drinks. (In addition to caffeine, these also can have added sugar and artificial flavors.) Caffeine is not stored in the body, but you may feel its effects for up to 6 hours.


Many people feel that caffeine increases their mental alertness. Higher doses of caffeine can cause anxiety, dizziness, headaches, and the jitters. Caffeine can also interfere with normal sleep.


Some people are more sensitive to the effects of caffeine than others. They should limit their use of caffeine. So should pregnant and nursing women. Certain drugs and supplements may interact with caffeine. If you have questions about whether caffeine is safe for you, talk with your health care provider.Though moderate caffeine intake isn't likely to cause harm, too much can noticeably affect your health. Heavy daily caffeine use — more than 500 to 600 mg a day, or about four to seven cups of coffee — can cause:

* Insomnia
* Nervousness
* Restlessness
* Irritability
* Nausea or other gastrointestinal problems
* Fast or irregular heartbeat
* Muscle tremors
* Headaches
* Anxiety


Most adults need seven to eight hours of sleep each night. But caffeine can interfere with this much-needed sleep. Chronically losing sleep — whether it's from work, travel, stress or too much caffeine — results in sleep deprivation. Sleep loss is cumulative, and even small nightly decreases can add up and disturb your daytime alertness and performance.

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Fear of Death

Among all of the basic fears that a human being possess the fear of DEATH is cruelest. It is quite obvious to have this fear as we can't expect anything after death. We don't know where or what we will be after death. However, DEATH is inevitable. I was enlightened on this agenda of late that I would like to share with you all and expect my effort to be proved fruitful.

The fear of DEATH in today's world is not as common as it was in the ages when there were no colleges and universities. Through the aid of biology, astronomy and other branch of science the fear of unknown that gripped the mind of mass capable of destroying their reason has been dispelled. Many beliefs that constrained human thoughts from getting wings are perished through the enlightenment of education.

So far as death is concerned, it is inevitable. It is a acceptable fact that death will come, and it's better not to be afraid of it.

According to Elementary Physics the whole Universe is made up of Energy and Matter, and they can't either be created or destroyed but can be transformed.
If Life is anything, then it's energy. When we are alive we undergo many processes that explains the transformation of life-energy from one form to another. Life can only be made to undergo various transitions, can't be put to an end. Death is mere Transition.

If Death was not mere a Transition, then what comes after death? After death comes a long undisturbed sleep having a eternal value. So, why should we be afraid of peace. Rather, a man spends his whole life in the quest of PEACE.

Well, I think you must have, a bit, overcome the fear of being 'perished' after going through the aforesaid article. I hope a open discussion on it for further enlightenment.

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